by William King
“Young people aren’t meant to suffer the vengeful hand of those who
deliver them to this world,” was the message pastor Butler delivered in
his Sunday sermon the morning brother Henry was born.
I was already three years old when Henry arrived. I‘d been around long enough to sense all
was not right within the walls of the Gladstone house. Initially, it was the tone
of language piercing the wooden slats of my small crib . It wasn’t
something a boy could fully grasp as threatening but a synthesis
of vocal agitation and unpredictable movement as if preparations for a
grander conflict was being formulated by someone or something living
within our home. Henry arrived just when the source of all the tension
was about to shed its skin.
Year one passed, mostly uneventful. There was the usual
shouting, broken plates and slammed doors all a careful distance from
Henry’s room. Then one afternoon father, “Mr. Eugene,” as
neighbors would address returned with a newly purchased antique smoking
centerpiece cut from plate glass with a bronze statue of an angel rising
up the middle. A small brass ashtray placed above the glass surface
next to an open pack of Winstons served purpose.
Eugene proudly showcased the recent acquisition to members of the
Chester Avenue Methodist Church of which he had recently been
appointed deacon. Rarely, would mother, Olene or Eugene invite
visitors without advantage. Neither were bred for small talk - speaking
mostly to folks who could advance their ideals or those privy to
wealth.
Eugene was a proud man short on compassion and
long on punishment for those who crossed him. He saw the world in strict
black and white, no grey areas or regions of compromise. Money served
purpose not the idle whims of frivolous play. Retribution came swift
without investigation or judicious hearing. There would be no defense no pleas
for mercy or lesser discipline. Eugene sanctioned whippings usually
with a hand-me-down razor strap like the one his father administered to
appropriate punishment for less than obedient children.
Brother Henry’s first year was spent mostly in the protective company of mother
Olene who at times could be affectionate at others unusually
distant. Olene’s disagreements with Eugene stemmed mostly from her mother’s
dissatisfaction with her conversion to Protestant teaching
over Catholicism, understood as a crime against her ancestors. Eugene would never
physically abuse her,but his presence brought an unfair level of
tension to her life.
Olene’s mother Velma despised Eugene and never forgave him for moving her first born hundreds of miles west of her birthplace. I had a special bond with grandma unlike that between mother and I. Grandma would always be bragging,” Daniel can do this, Daniel can
do that.” Mother never knew much what I could do other than clean
things and wait on dad and plea for Henry.
One morning Eugene sprung from bed in a rare cheerful mood and
called for two-year old Henry. He lifted brother, kissed about the
forehead leaving him fly upward, release, then catch him as he falls
within quick grasp. Their laughter would dissolve into joyful
celebration a magic union between father and son.
Eugene backslid down the worn red brocade couch with Henry bundled in his arms. The
moment so thrilled brother he broke caution then lovingly hugged
father about the neck. Eugene began tickling Henry’s feet all the way up under
the armpits. Suddenly, Henry’s right leg makes an involuntary swing
downward through the middle of father’s prized centerpiece shattering
the delicate surface into a thousand charred bits of glass. As if
summoned from the bowels of Hades, Eugene lungs exhale the most
terrifying cry of anguish. Father springs to his feet and declares an
unconscionable act has been wrought against his prized possession.
He quickly tosses Henry aside, gathers two large sheets of broken
glass, walks determinedly to a back porch receptacle and heaves the
fragments inside the aluminum container. With dust pail in hand,
Eugene collects every sliver until the area is clean of all evidence.
Henry quietly observes wishing father would return and embrace him as
before. But Eugene had other plans. While ridding the floor of shard
fragments he secretly plots a degree of punishment. Father
determines, after all it was Henry’s careless leg kick that destroyed
his angelic centerpiece, not the actions of a somewhat careless parent, someone should accept the consequences.
Eugene coldly lifts young Henry and carries him to his bedroom then
tosses on the mattress as if discarding an unwanted article. Eugene
searches for the underside hook of his buckle, unsnaps then slowly
pulls the thick leather belt through the shredded loops of his work
pants. While clutching the belt ends in his fist he reaches down and
rolls the young boy on his stomach then lashes his backside with ten
unsparing strokes. Henry unfurls an agonizing scream - one mixed with
terror and few muted words then begs father to cease and explain why
such pain be declared upon him. Eugene breaks silence.
“ This will teach you to be careful, you clumsy shit. The angel was
here no more than a week and you destroyed it. You know how much that
cost me don’t you? Don’t leave this room until you hear from me.”
Witnessing such a horrific encounter sickened me. For most the next week
I spoke few words. Father tried to lighten conversation with me but I
refused to oblige him. He’d never laid a hand on me but I saw a
different hand strike at Henry.
Time would advance and Henry quickly learned not trespass
father’s mecurical temperament. Instead, he designed a system of lanes
well below chairs and tables, along walls behind the living room
couch transporting him dafely beyond the old man’s inspecting eye.
Eugene was an enormous man just past six feet seven in height and
weighing less than two hundred pounds. Everywhere he walked he cast a
long shadow. To Henry he resembled an imaginary creature dwelling at
night below the floorboards of the bed who’d unexpectedly enter his dreams.
There would be the usual bouts of temperament, explosive fits of
anger between Eugene and Olene but nothing too serious until Henry
began regular schooling.
Eugene found himself locked in battle with the plant labor union.
He was vehemently opposed to any organised intrusion into the workplace
even if it meant wage guarantee and job benefits. Father was not a man
of vision. He was an arrogant, petty backstabbing opportunist who
engaged in race mongering and pontifical self-righteous exhortation.
I never understood that when I was a kid but who knows what
parents are truly made of until experience and wisdom clear your field vision.
“Why we need this scum from Washington all they want is our money.
We do the workin’ - they do the takin”, he’d say.
Father would repeat the mantra person to person like a fire
breathing Pentecostal minister. He was like a one man wrecking crew out
to to rid the world of so-called “Big government”. His actions would
only alienate fellow co-workers who already harbored a less than
complimentary opinion of the “ Screamin’ ass “ as they would privately
address him.
Father was a security guard whose duty was either turn lights on
or flip them off - lock and unlock doors or chase “Thieving Negroes, “off
the company dump. He excelled in the latter. Why he picked a fight with
an organization who’s objective could only benefit a lowly “Watch boy”,
no one rightly understood. Everybody swore the big farm boy had been
kicked in the head by a less than domestic jackass.
Poor Henry never had a friend until elementary school. We lived an
oppressive existence detached from relatives and neighbors preferring
to insulate him from outside influence staying mostly indoors.
Sundays, Henry and I would slide are small frames down the front porch
steps out of Eugene’s view but the old man never let us out of the
cross-hairs.
“ Son, get your skinny ass back up here where I can see you. Daniel
where you think your going? I know the both of you are up to something.”
Henry and I watched the other children race by pedaling their
bright red bicycles or hike to the dime store as a group. I was always
curious what I’d be like to walk the walk. Olene would be there to scold
- the perfect watchdog for commander Gladstone.
“I know what you thinking Henry. You think we’re being special hard
on Daniel and you because you two are our only children but that ain’t
so. You gotta grow up right like your father and mother. We ain’t gonna
have any hoodlums in this family."
Henry would listen then turn his attention back to the street. What
he really desired were a few kind words of encouragement, some act of
affection that would assure him he was truly a worthy boy.
Olene insisted on sending Henry to Catholic school causing a fierce
confrontation with Eugene.
They knew better than send me there. Every time those witches in black came around grandma I’d cry hysterically.That gave father reason enough to send me to public school. No such luck
for Henry.
“ Catholics just poison the boy’s mind with all them alcoholic
priests and pedophiles Olene,” father would say. “ I’d just have to
straighten him out all that much more. They'll turn that boy queer, I'm telling you." This would be one of the
uncommon arguments he’d loose to mother.
"You can rest assured mother hates you for taking me away from the
church and I promised her Henry would be baptized Catholic and he will
always be Catholic, you hearing me good Eugene Gladstone?” Olene had the last word on that subject.
Henry proved to be a reluctant student distracted by the
simplest things. Children would contort their faces, stretch lips,
causing Henry to laugh aloud. “Sisters of No Mercy” would order him
extend palms then whack about the soft lines with a twelve inch ruler.
The poor boy would nearly cry then quickly suppress the urge. For Henry
this stuff was child’s play. Eventually, he became a disruptive
presence forcing school officials to send for our parents. Eugene was
appalled by his brother’s behavior while Olene swore up and down
Henry would never commit such ungodly acts against the church.
During the drive home a deaf silence stilled the car. I sensed
major consequence. “ Nasty people those old nuns, I hate them,” Henry
mumbled.
“ Shut up Henry, we’ll talk when I get you home, “ responded
father. “ But dad! Shut up Henry, I’ll take care of you when I get
home.”
Poor Henry’s mind replayed past infractions, errant bursts of
laughter, gum chewing, a few naughty words, but somehow they didn’t add
up to the impending discipline. Besides, the nuns had already strapped
and humiliated .
“ Come with me boy, “ elder Gladstone commands, then grabs Henry’s
arm lifting him half distance above ground. His knees bounce side to
side off the wooden steps as father carries him up the stairs . Eugene
reaches inside an old storage trunk extracts a tattered strip of
leather.
“ I told you boy someday you’d get a whipping like the one’s my
old man gave me.”
Father commences beating Henry about the legs , along
the back, anywhere there were patches of exposed skin, by-passing the
face. Exhausted and drained by anger Eugene abandons a screaming Henry who’s now fallen into a near state of shock.
“There will be
no next time, I’m taking you out of Catholic school. I’ll find you a
place where you better behave.”
Eugene then retreats from the room. Henry can barely unfold his
stricken legs. We both watch these red/blue welts rise above the
discolored surface of his tender skin surrounded by few smooth areas .
Suddenly, the crying stops and Henry into this trance like state. This
would be the last moment I ever saw him carry one grain of love for
father.
Olene never entered the room until morning. Her only words, “ I warned
you.”
In general, things would improve in public school. Eugene was
spending months convalescing in VA hospitals where it was determined
injuries he suffered in World War ll were improperly treated not to
mention the special counseling they were giving him. Father had
absorbed a large hit of shrapnel in the abdomen sending him stateside
for long term convalescence during the early stages of the war. After
six months he was declared fit for duty then parachuted behind enemy
lines. A barrage of artillery shells exploded in the vicinity of his fox
hole killing several fellow infantrymen somehow sparing him . This
would further empty his heart. Eventually, he would receive a medical
discharge after evidence of an impending nervous breakdown. After
returning home father chose to heal himself rather than seek proper
help.
Henry was an average student better suited to social sciences than
math.
Eugene followed brother’s progress with a keen sense of responsibility.
When his math scores began to sag he decided to “ Put some knowledge in
the boy’s head.”
Class began one evening after dinner when Olene placed a freshly
baked pumpkin pie next to the fried okra. Eugene gripped the long bread
knife then began carving equal portions and asked.
“ What are you studying in math that you find so hard?
“ Fractions sir," a confused Henry responds.
“ What do you find hard about fractions?, father inquires.
“ It’s all new to us dad we just started learning about them last
week.”
“Come here son and have a seat. Watch me. I’m going to slice this pie
in four sections. Now , if it’s whole without me cutting anything what
fraction represents one slice.
“
Henry hesitates , then responds. “ One.”
“ What? I thought you were learning something in school. If this pie
equals one and I slice it into four pieces what’ll you call one slice?
“
Henry thinks but can’t draw a clear thought after hearing the
ominous tone of Eugene’s exasperated voice. Instead, he says nothing.
“ I haven’t heard you answer boy?
“ Aaaa__two.”
Eugene whips the bone knuckle of his broad fist across the table
smacking the boy across the cheek.
”I said, if the pie is whole and I take one slice how many is
left.”
Henry says, “ Three.”
“ See there son you ain’t as dumb as you make me think, eat your
pie then go to you room and do some math.”
Olene would appear like an inspecting guard in the doorway of
Henry’s bedroom.
“ Your dad said you can turn your light out now and go to sleep.”
Henry never questioned Olene’s lack of empathy. She was cold, for the
most part indifferent to Eugene’s cruelty. She had a rigid moral code
one short on compassion for her son yet concerned for the well being of
less fortunate church sponsored orphans. Although Henry suffered in
private mother’s cruel detachment and the occasional beating from
Eugene she accepted things as the were. We had no point of reference
or clue how other families lived. It would be our high school friends
who’d shed light on this precarious situation.
Several of Henry’s friends played a game of sandlot baseball after
school hours. Henry was invited to participate. Baseball fascinated him.
In fact, he collected the most impossible cards using shrewd trades with
other like minded boys. Mickey Mantle was his idol. Amongst his rare
collection, Mantle’s rookie card. At night he’d place the card next to
his bed climb into an imaginary batter’s box and with his bat strike a
pose like the once great Yankee hitter.
He’d level the heavy wood ,
heave a few test strokes then swing at full speed splitting stilled air
across the bed’s midsection . More than anything he wanted to try his
swing against real pitching. I had no idol only Henry .
Up to now father ran the house like military boot camp, no room
for sport or art.
Henry approached mother requesting to play organized
baseball. At first she deferred the request to Eugene. After realizing
he’d departed for a two day hunting trip with army pal Bud Norman she
gave the ok.
Boys, baseball, sweltering afternoons is about a perfect combination
ever realized. Henry wasn’t much at handling fly balls most sailed over
his head but at the plate he could make fair contact. At fourteen he
was a growing boy almost six feet tall and hundred forty pounds. He
could take your head off if you got near of one of his speed pitches. Henry
threw straight up heat. His buddies wanted a piece of the overhand fast
ball but none could catch the velocity. Henry soon became legend.
Word got out around school he had a couple pitches as challenging as
Dodger ace Sandy Koufax.
Mother witnessed change in Henry's overall morale.
Brother was still a C student but their was a spirit to him that would
linger long after returning from nine innings of baseball. She begged
Eugene to let the him play more sports after school.
“ He’s fourteen, well versed in good and bad,” she would argue.
Eugene thought about it, then said;
“ I’ll let the boy play but he better not screw up on the diamond
like he does in school.”
When Olene delivered the good news, Henry
though thankful was more than suspicious of the old man’s appeasing
behavior.
The living room of the our house was converted into a war
memorial/gun rack for all visitors to see. Father displayed his purple
heart, citations, rifle pin, division patches and letter of
accommodation from World Wat II. Next to them a mahogany case armed with
rare French and Italian shotguns, rifles , pistols all smuggled in a
body bag by Eugene and his friends out of France after liberation. The
detailed silver work carved along the gun stalks was evidence of
breathtaking artistry. Father knew exactly what he had stolen and took
every opportunity to exhibit them to like minded hunting pals. He also
kept a loaded Winchester rifle ready just in case ”One of those thieving Negroes
choose to commit harm on him.”
Whatever possessed father to force Henry and me along for a duck
hunting trip is near unexplainable. He knew the both of us detested
firearms, the killing of innocent beings. Henry concerned himself more
with repairing the broken limbs of fallen bird. I never fully
comprehended why men blast seemingly defenseless mammals senseless.
Eugene marched through high weeds and marsh like a man intent on
revenge. As the ducks scattered and took flight he’d blast wildly
leaving pot marks about the soil and trees occasionally maiming a bird
or two. Eventually it came time for Henry to step up. Eugene handed him
his favorite pump action rifle. At first brother reluctantly held the
weapon down his side. Father scolded him for not paying closer attention
to the rules of safety.
Henry assumed he could outwit the old man firing at an imaginary
target , shrug it off then walk away. But something unexpected
occurred. A young buck showed himself in a thicket of trees no more than
fifty yards in front of his weapon. Father was ecstatic.
“Be quiet boy don’t let him see your motion just move real slow.”
Suddenly, Henry’s knee’s weaken. He then lowers the barrel.
“ What the hell you doing, shoot the bastard, “ the old man whispers.
“ Dad, I can’t do it.”
“ What you mean you can’t do it, hell he’s standing there waiting
for you.”
“I won't do it.”
“ Boy if you don’t shoot this buck, I’m going to kick your ass all
up and down Main Street until everyone laughs in your face.”
Henry lowers his head and stoically faces the ground. Father grabs
the rifle points in the direction of the deer, assumes a shooter’s
position then quickly discovers the buck has disappeared from sight. He
spins around fires two shots killing a chipmunk fleeing this side an old
spruce tree.
“ You know something, I think you're queer. A queer would get all weak
in the woods like one of those tree huggers. Get the hell out of here.”
The ride back was a moribund affair. Father revived the immortal
instant the young buck belonged to Henry and his refusal to do
proper work on the animal. Henry looked away far beyond the ash pine
and blacken ridge of Hope mountain. In his heart he knew he hadn’t
reach the point of full blown hatred for father but was increasingly incensed with the belittling comments.
As soon as Henry stepped inside the doorway Eugene sucker punched
brother in the face. The blow sent Henry coiling to the floor.
“ Get up and fight like a man. Take your punishment like a real man
not like your queer friends.”
Henry refused to stand up. Eugene reached down then grabs him under
the right armpit yanks him lengthwise upright. Smack! Another blow to
the nose and face. Blood sprays all directions staining the woven
circular carpet. Mother dashes from the kitchen and intervenes all the
while I’m screaming in terror.
“ Get away from him Eugene. Don’t hit the boy again,” mother orders.
Meanwhile, Henry’s tear-drenched face is smeared in blood .
Father breaks Olene’s grip drags the boy by the collar to a large
utility closet then shoves him inside and locks the door then leaves
the room.
I run to mother begging her to rescue Henry from this nightmare. She
just stands nearby like a pillar of salt. Again I plead with her to take
Henry to the hospital, call an ambulance, police, just do something. She
calmly pushes me aside and walks out the kitchen door to a rusted swing set in
the backyard.
I watch her sit down then kick forward, rock back in forth as
if to disassociate herself from all that has happened.
For the better part of four hours Henry profusely wept. I’d
hear his weakened voice plead,
“ Where are you mother? Why do you allow
him do such horrible things to me?”
Once again I ran to mother hoping
she’d change her mind to know avail
. Olene did eventually return, unlock the door then walk away leaving
the brother free to exit on his own.
From that day Henry’s anger never wavered. He decided in time the
old man would pay dearly. He hadn’t decided how or when but was certain
it would be a grand display.
Baseball and sociology would consume Henry’s waking hours. When he
wasn’t volunteering in the community center or working weekends at St.
Joe’s, he honed his skills on the ball diamond.
Eugene rarely spoke to
brother. Something had snapped in the man. He no longer attempted to
control every movement in the young man’s life. Besides, brother was
making above average grades.
It was fall, the eighteenth year of Henry’s life. He’d won twelve
games as starting pitcher for the Campellville Jayhawks leading the
team to the sectional. Around the plate he still wasn’t much a threat
with his bat but his fast ball clocked in at over ninety miles an
hour. He would be the subject of conversation throughout Putnam County
and scouts as far east as Boston.
The Jayhawks were facing their old nemesis the Providence Blue
Devils under coach Dan Berryman who always found a unique way to steal
victory from the best of teams.
Henry realized the significance of the
game and prepared like a prizefighter battling for a rare world
championship belt.
Father never attended brother’s games but decided to make the trip
out of town .
Henry was the talk of Larcott Products the plant where Eugene
worked for more than twenty-two years. Eugene’s boss, Haplern Ashcroft
would recite all brother’s statistics, the speed of every pitch in his
arsenal. Eugene acted like he was more than proud of brother’s
achievements going so far as to take credit for his pitching style.
“ You know I always taught the boy to throw over the top and follow
through. I’d never let him throw that sidearm stuff. That’ll destroy
your elbow quicker than a motorcycle fall, “ he’d say.
Over a thousand folks showed for Henry’s big game, most to witness
the blazing fast ball.
The Jayhawk’s batted first getting two men on
with a walk and single. A force out at third, pop up above second and
strikeout would stymie any chance of scoring. It was Henry’s turn.
Before he unleashed the first pitch his eyes scanned the sizable
crowd. A trace of stage fright rippled through his veins but Henry was
to pumped to acknowledge it.
First pitch, “ strike!”, a smokin’ fast ball somewhere near
eighty-seven miles at the knees. Second pitch, inside sinker that just
grazes the batter’s elbow.
“Hit batter, take first,” yells the ump. Henry looks away unfazed.
The next batter would level an outside curve beyond the centre fielder’s
reach all the way to the back fence. A run would score. Again Henry’s
pitches, nips a batter; runners first and third. Whack! the ball sails
past the first baseman down the line. Two runs in.
A dejected Henry
turns to wipe his brow and clear his eyes. As he turns he spots Eugene
clinging to wire mesh along first base, face red spouting obscenities.
“ The damn boy is queer I tell you he couldn’t plug a big ass buck
at ten yards let alone throw a fast ball over the plate.”
Henry coldly shoots the old man a menacing look. Eugene turns
towards the stands then yells.
“Hey everybody I’m telling right now he ain’t got the guts to
finish the job. Don’t bet no money on the wimp.”
With that remark, Henry pulls himself from the game exits back of the
clubhouse. I catch him running out the back gate. Brother was in no mood
for conversation. I keep asking him what’s he going to do but he ignores
me. Henry then speeds the ten mile distance home walks to Eugene’s prized
gun rack, grabs the Winchester, a few shells and lifts another item
barely visible from a wooden basket.
Henry bled with anger, an anger no
man should carry.
I grab him by the jacket, swing around and beg him
to answer me.
“ What have I done to him? Why does he hate and humiliate me?” he asks,
then turns for the door.
When we return Henry watches both teams exchange positions with
Campellville coming to bat. With the rifle near his side he walks behind
a high row of bleachers to first base side spots Eugene laughing near
the fence. Without hesitation he raises the Winchester jabs into the
crevice of Eugene’s neck and orders him to walk ahead. Father laughs
then threatens to beat brother worse than he’d ever been beaten intent
on playing for the crowd’s sympathy. Henry in no mood for back talk
cocks the rifle then speaks.
“ Move your stinken ass around the other side of the fence. Now!”
A
stunned silence hits the field leaving everyone focused on Henry.
Eugene emits a nervous giggle.
“ Put the gun down Henry before I whip your ass.”
Henry thumbs the trigger jabs the barrel deeper into his neck then
repeats the order.
“ Move ‘round to home plate you evil shit!”
Eugene glances beyond the back stop at a somber row of faces staring
from above.
No one flinches. Slowly he steps around the curved spine of
fencing onto the playing field.
“ To the back fence Eugene.”
Father obliges.
“ Turn around face the crowd, “ Henry demands.
As he begins the reversal Henry reaches in a cloth sack pulls from it
the worn leather strap the one Eugene’s dad had whipped his less than obedient
son with. Out of view Henry delivers a blistering stroke across the old
man’s back. Then one back the neck.
“ How does it feel you rotten bastard? Remember how you enjoy
whipping baby boys or have you forgotten.”
Henry pauses then slings two more long strokes dead center of Eugene’s
back.
“I hope you feel every slash of leather, the bloody welts, the
broken patches of skin, my tears left to dry on the floor. You’ll never
ever lay a hand on me again or will you ever humiliate me in front of
my friends.”
The rifle falls drops beneath a half foot of soil in the batters box
. Henry then places the leather strap on top the small wooden butt,
turns and walks away. Eugene collapses, his long fingers cover the head
and eyes. He then discharges an eerie tone not unlike the plea of a
wounded animal .
Throughout the hushed playground, few speak choosing
instead to stare like distant relatives attending the funeral of an all
but forgotten uncle. No one dared consider punishing the boy knowing to
well the pain that he endured most his childhood.
There was no reason to
resume the game the night belonged to Henry.
Olene cried out for Henry, even begged forgiveness but Henry
brushed her aside and left the park alone. I tried catching up but he
was in no mood for comfort. Eventually, he turned and hugged me.
“
You can go back home brother he’ll never hit another child. If he does you just
call me, I assure it will be his last act of cowardliness.”
With that
remark, Henry went home and packed a few things then left. It was months
before I hear from him. He’d taken a full scholarship offer to play
baseball down in Georgia.
A year after the birth of his first child Henry hung a plague in the
living room with a passage someone mailed anonymously from church,
“Young people aren’t meant to suffer the vengeful hand of those who
deliver them to this world.”
* * * * *
YoBit allows you to claim FREE CRYPTO-COINS from over 100 unique crypto-currencies, you complete a captcha once and claim as much as coins you want from the available offers.
ReplyDeleteAfter you make about 20-30 claims, you complete the captcha and continue claiming.
You can press claim as much as 30 times per one captcha.
The coins will held in your account, and you can exchange them to Bitcoins or USD.